Green Eyed View

The Ramblings of a Green-Eyed Gal

Tough Day Joys March 31, 2007

Filed under: Life — sarah j. @ 5:32 pm

It can sometimes be difficult to remember Joy on those days when a lot of “tough stuff” happens. Yesterday [Friday] I had one of those tough days at work. It was so trying that it threatened to make me forget some really sweet times that I had during my day.

I had a bad “key” day on Friday. I arrived at work a few minutes early, and realized I did not have my work keys. These keys are critical to my work day, because they let me get my cash drawer out of the vault–which I need, most epecially on a Friday. Well, my keys were not to be found. I could not remember ever taking them out of my purse, but I knew that they had to be at home, most likely on my coffee table [and they were]. Normally, it would not be THAT big of a deal, because we all have a spare key locked in a key box. But, for some reason, I did not have any spare keys in the key box for my drawer. I was absolutely unable to get my cash drawer out until lunchtime, when I was able to run home and get my keys. By using the money I had bought for the day, along with buying small bills from co-workers, I was able to function and perform my duties for the morning. Boy was it frustrating!! I was working out of the empty drawer my cash drawer goes into, and just had to pile the money up in as neat as piles as possible. Loose coin was scattered everywhere from the open coin rolls I was having to work from. I felt so disorganized–and I looked it. My boss enjoyed poking fun at me and pointing out my less than tidy and unconventional drawer to a couple of out “regular” members. I was a little embarrassed opening my drawer. 😛

Then, at the end of the work day, I went to the corporate offices of one of our main membership groups, because we have a drop box for deposits there. When I arrived at the building, I put my keys in my purse, locked my door, and got out of my car with my entry badge and the key I needed to get into the drop box. When I returned to my car, I realized I had left my purse in the car….with my keys inside…..with my car locked. Yes, I locked my keys in my car. And the spare key….was in my purse as well. I really started feeling like I should have not left the house today. I went back inside the corporate building to the security office, to see if one of the guys had some way of helping. They apparently are unable to help people get into their cars, even though they have some of the equipment necessary to do so, and gave me the number to Pop a Lock. So…its 5:00, and I am waiting for the Pop A Lock people to come pop my lock. The ETA is 30-45 minutes. I had the deposits, which had to be posted before we closed at 5:30, and no way to get back to my office. I called my manager to explain the situation, and he had to come get the deposits in order for them to be posted on time. I felt like the most irresponsible employee in the world. I was feeling lousy, and just wanted to cry. I kept telling myself it was no big deal, and praying and asking what God was wanting to teach me through this, in order to keep my emotions at bay. I did….ok. I got teary eyed…I admit it! 😦

These two situations, along with the whole car situation making me late in meeting my friend Nicole for her bridal shower that night, could have threatened my Joy, if I had let it. I really had to stop and realize that some wonderful, sweet things had happened that day. God had really blessed me and filled me with Joy. My day really was good, in spite of being tough and trying. I had a sweet time of prayer and journaling with God that morning, and a great run filled with praise and worship. At lunch, I had a spur of the moment opportunity to meet with my friend Kristen, and it was such a wonderful, encouraging, and sweet time. Our conversation was good, and I was given some great words of wisdom and challenge. And my evening was great. I went with Nicole to her bridal showers, and afterwards was able to spend a short time talking with her as well, which was really good as well.

I am trying to learn that I cannot let my situations and circumstances [or my EMOTION] control my responses and behavior. I admit, on my way home to meet Nicole, I almost lost it. I was ready to just forget the shower and go curl up in bed and cry and feel sorry for myself. But, by the grace of God alone, I was to get the focus OFF MYSELF, and back where it needed to be. It took conscious effort, and a lot of it. I had to fight for the Joy. I had to reflect on all God had done. And then, all was….good. Really good.

I am enjoying learning these things. I am thankful for work of God in my life. He is doing some really incredible things in my life right now! I have been amazed and blown away and awestruck at Him and what He is doing. He is SO AMAZING, and FAITHFUL, and GOOD, and HOLY and absolutely GLORIOUS!!!!

 

Definitions March 26, 2007

Filed under: Ponderings — sarah j. @ 6:45 pm

Courage: Bravery; intrepidity; that quality of mind which enables men to encounter danger and difficulties with firmness, or without fear or depression of spirits; valor; boldness; resolution. It is a constituent part of fortitude; but fortitude implies patience to bear continued suffering.

Encourage: To give courage to; to give or increase confidence of success; to inspire with courage, spirit, hope, or strength of mind; to embolden; to animate; to incite; to inspirit.

Discourage: To extinguish the courage of; to dishearten; to depress the spirits; to deject; to deprive of confidence. To deter from any thing; with from. To attempt to repress or prevent; to dissuade from; as, to discourage an effort.

 

Allergies

Filed under: Uncategorized — sarah j. @ 7:25 am

Hello, my name is Sarah, and I am an allergy sufferer.

For me to admit to having allergies is significant. Growing up, I do not remember having problems with allergies. I remember in my early college years, my friends would start complaining about their allergies with the Spring weather, and I would be sympathetic and tell them I don’t have trouble with pollen, mold, and/or whatever else floats around in the Spring air.

Then, at the end of college, I began my denial period. I would get a “head cold” at the end of every winter/beginning of spring. I still didn’t believe my symptoms were allergy related, and would vehemently deny having allergies. I simply thought that I just happened to get my winter sickness after everyone else. That my malady was a Spring cold. I don’t have allergies. I never have had them before, why should that change?

The last few years, however, I have come to accept that I have developed allergies. I suffer from allergies. I have begun to notice a pattern with how I suffer. Last year, I began getting a dry cough that simply would not go away. I would cough and cough intermittently throughout the day, with it becoming annoyingly frequent in the evenings and at bedtime. With it being all in my throat, my voice was affected, and I lost the use of it for what seemed to be several weeks [although in reality it was probably only one or two].

The cough has returned over this past weekend, and I am able to finally admit and realize that it is due to allergens that love to pop up with the beauty of Spring. I have the same dry cough, and am anticipating voice loss soon. I really hope and pray this is not the case, because I very much need my voice in the upcoming weeks. I do NOT need to lose it! I further settled into my role as an allergy sufferer by taking a daily dose of Claritin. I don’t know if this will work or not, but I am willing to try anything. Not having had much experience in the area of admitted allergies, I have to start with what I think may work. We shall see [and…by ‘we’, I guess I mean “I” shall see….haha…such a funny little saying…”we shall see”…]

Anyway, I am now a full-fledge member in the allergy club. I guess it comes with adulthood and growing up and older and all that fun stuff! 🙂

Coughingly Yours,

 

Its Take and Bake, And I Helped March 23, 2007

Filed under: Family — sarah j. @ 7:32 am

Last night, I had an unexpected free evening when I realized my Perspectives class wasn’t meeting because of Spring Break. I decided to go out to my folks for a little while and spend some quality time with them. I introduced them to Papa Murphy’s Take and Bake Pizza. It was a success. If you have never tried Papa Murphy’s, you need to! It is yummy, in my opinion. I was a little concerned my parents might not like it, but it was for naught. My mom’s comment was that she is only getting her veggie pizzas from Papa Murphy’s from now on. I must say, it did look pretty loaded and yummy, and I don’t even like veggie pizzas [onions and peppers –YUCK!]. And she kept asking us for our crusts, because she really liked it. It is pretty good pizza. It was fun watching them make my pizzas. I had a pineapple pizza, which was yummy as well. And, I discovered a little known fact that my dad in fact really likes pineapple pizza as well. Pretty neat.

I also decided to take my Scrabble game I recently bought with me, to see if they would want to play. This may be hard to believe, but I have never played Scrabble. Its true. My mom hadn’t played it since she was young, and my dad said, “You have to be able to spell to play, and I can’t”. We never played an actual game, but I had a practice round with myself to see how I would do. I couldn’t really get beyond simple 3 and 4 letter words. I did manage a few 5 letter words, of which I was proud. 😛 My parents got in on the action, with mom reading up on the scoring, and dad coming up with some….interesting…. words for my leftover letters. Mom then occupied her time challenging some of the words he suggested, like “TOX”, and “TOL”, of which he was convinced were words. Another one he wanted me to use was “TOWL”. I believe this is where his…unique… way of spelling came into play, as the word he was actually referring to was “TOWEL”. I love my dad. He cracks me up. Half the time I don’t know if he is REALLY being serious, or if he is just trying to be funny. Regardless, I had so much fun with my parents in the world of words. And I think I could really enjoy a mean game of Scrabble, if I can find anyone who will play with me. Anyone? Anyone? Bueller?

S-A-R-A-H spelling out [I know…proper names are not legal]

 

Thankfulness March 22, 2007

Filed under: Ponderings — sarah j. @ 11:35 am

I have been trying to develop a habit of naming a certain number of things for which I am thankful each morning, in order to always recognize how awesome God is and give Him all the credit for it. He blesses in so many ways that can often be overlooked when living life, if time is not taken to reflect on them. We are to always be thankful. I want my life to overflow with thankfulness to Him. So…here are some from today’s list: 🙂

I am thankful for waking up EARLY this morning, refreshed and ready to get out of bed, even before my alarm went off at 5.

I am thankful for the soreness and ache of my arm, leg, and stomach muscles. They are getting worked and will [hopefully] soon be trimmer!

I am thankful for God keeping me safe as I ran in the pre-morning darkness.

I am thankful for the worship music I listened to during my run, and for being able to praise Him even while exercising.

I am thankful for the full and deep breath of fresh morning air I took. Every breath is a gift from God [including the one I am taking now!!]

I am thankful for the head massage I got while having my hair shampooed at the salon yesterday.

I am thankful for the Word of God. I am thankful that He still speaks today through His Word, and how He uses His Word to renew my mind and transform me.

I am thankful for the encouragement God has given me over the last few days, and what a healing balm it has been.

I am thankful that He works in me to give me the desire and the ability to ‘work for His good purpose’ [do His will and what He wants me to do].

I am thankful that He is at work in every area of my life, and what He is doing is GOOD.

I am thankful for His provision, both now and in the future.

I am thankful for tomatoes. [they are oh so good!]

I am thankful for my roommate’s opportunity to serve God on the mission field. When we go in May to Oaxaca, Mexico, she will be staying on for 2 more months!

I am thankful for the strength God has given me daily as I wait upon and Hope in Him!!

So much to be thankful for!! And this is just a small snapshot of what I could remember from this morning, and what popped into my head while typing this [like the bit about tomatoes..they are in my lunch…]. Praise God from whom all blessings flow!! 🙂

JOY!

 

Interceeding March 14, 2007

Filed under: Ponderings — sarah j. @ 9:22 pm

I have been thinking about intercessory prayer a lot today. I think it is incredible how we can pray for a fellow brother, sister, friend, family member, co-worker, etc. God is so amazing in how He uses others in our lives to bring His will and to change us through their prayers. I know I have experienced so much growth and change in my own life through the faithful prayers of some awesome prayer warriors in my life. I believe in prayer. It has POWER. God works in and through prayer. In continuing with my recent style of posting a bit of verse in my posts, I wanted to post this little poem about heavy interceeding. I hope you like it. 🙂

For Him I weep

For him I weep, nay, not for me
For him I toil down on my knees
For her I struggle, I grasp my hair
For her my sobs cut through the air

The ache is deep, the yearning is real
For Your grace to flow, I pray with zeal
Lord, break his heart! Lord, mend hers, too!
Your will be done, that much be true

I seek You Lord, on his behalf
For him, Oh Lord, please spare Your wrath
For her I plead before Your throne
The night is long as awake I groan

My heart is heavy with the burden inside
My spirit grows faint, but still I abide
In Your Word and presence, Lord I remain
Expecting You, I praise Your name

Strength will rise as I wait upon You
Steadfast in faith, I await what You will do
Your answer will come though slow now it seems
In Your perfect time, Lord, Your glory will be seen

But for now I pray; my burden I must keep
I will not give up
For him I weep

SJH 2007

From the heart,

 

Surrender March 11, 2007

Filed under: Ponderings — sarah j. @ 9:56 pm

This weekend I went with many women from my church, The Grove, on a women’s retreat to Castle Bluff, which is a camp/retreat center in the Buffalo River Valley. I had an INCREDIBLE TIME. There are really amazing women at the Grove! I was blessed to have the opportunity to get to know some of these women a little better, and began friendships with some I hadn’t yet known at all. And the location–WOW. We were in the middle of God’s glorious creation in nature. He is so creative! It was BEAUTIFUL.

And, most importantly, I got to spend time with God in His word and through our study, which was on becoming a woman of excellence [essentially…becoming Christ-like and our identity in Him]. The weekend simply was not long enough!! I realized that this morning [Sunday] as we were wrapping up and were to talk on our last topic, and only had 20 minutes to do so. The topic was Surrender. I for one thought that needed a whole day, haha! 🙂

I had a teeny tiny disappointment, because I was really hoping and praying and seeking for God to speak to me in a profound way. I really wanted and yearned for an “AHA!!” moment with Him from some divine revelation. That did not happen, but it is OK!!!! God gave me some solid nuggets and gems of His Truth, which are glorious and wonderful. I had little “ahas”. 🙂 I trust Him to expand on those however He chooses in the next few days as I process the weekend. I always need time to process and reflect on things…. 🙂

I learned a new worship song this weekend. Its called Surrender, and the words are really powerful to me. Songs and poetry so often speak to my heart. I know I just posted a song, but I wanted to share the words of this song. I don’t know who wrote the song or performed it, so I cannot give credit to the artist. 😦 It may be a familiar song to some, but I had never heard it before.

Surrender

I’m giving You my heart And all that is within
I lay it all down For the sake of You my King
I’m giving You my dreams I’m laying down my rights
I’m giving up my pride For the promise of new life

And I surrender All to You, All to You
And I surrender All to You, All to You

I’m singing You this song I’m waiting at the cross
And all the world holds dear I count it all as loss
For the sake of knowing You For the glory of Your name
To know the lasting Joy Even sharing in Your pain

That is a cry of my heart!! To surrender all to my Lord. And why shouldn’t I? The life that I live is not mine, but it is Christ’s, who lives in me. My dreams, rights, and pride are “rubbish” 🙂 compared to His glory. Much is to be made of Him, and Him alone.